Told Myself I Wouldn't Go There
Suicide/Attempted Hanging
Everything was falling out of her mind as she focused on the magic, her lips moving even if she had fallen more silent at some point -- it was a stark contrast, the warmth of the day and the sunshine on her face, even as her body went cold with how much of herself she was pouring into Ella to try and bring her back. A gentle caress of the wind had her faltering a moment, before she continued with renewed efforts. If she could keep her blood moving, manually trying to pump her heart long enough, eventually Ella would come back from the Fade, right? She would come back to her body like she should, like Kaczor had been taught could happen, all those years ago, right?

She was unaware of when the two Eye's mages burst into the house, but she was more than aware when she felt her hands smacked away and Ella taken from her by none other than the Chancellor himself. Of course he would come, of course he would take Ella away from her, so as soon as she saw the man pick Ella up and retreat back into the house, Kaczor was scrambling to follow, her mind set on only one thing, her wife, and getting her back where she should be. And when Malik stepped into her path, to prevent her from following, she didn't listen, Get out of my way, that's my wife, Malik!

She didn't stop until she felt the man's hip ram into her abdomen, their heights all too similar, and Kaczor was glad her brother-in-law was a few inches taller than her, because she realized a few inches lower would have had her in the dirt, rolling in pain -- but it was enough to drive her backwards, and now Malik was in her way, doors were in her way, and that would not do in any which way. She tried to summon a conjured blade to hand, but she was too spent in that moment to even attempt any magic, too tapped from trying to keep her wife alive, so she went after Malik with her fists, one catching him in his shoulder, which he rounded around Annie, making sure the experience for the child was nothing more than a few whirls from her uncle, even as her Mapa tried to beat the man to move him. She heard him talk, but didn't hear the words he said, none of it really mattered though, because on her next punch she found herself on the ground, Malik's arm wrapped around her neck, and Annie giggling and yanking at both of their hair.

Kaczor struggled against the hold, the blind need to get to Ella raising a wailing sound from her, which was immediately shushed, and then she felt Malik's head next to hers, how easy it would be to head-butt him to get him off her so she could scramble inside to Ella. But between Annie and he, she was effectively trapped, so she tried to breath, chest heaving as she waited for his hold to loosen some, anything to try and get free - and when she got ready to struggle again, She lives, she does, and she's going to need you in the next few weeks.. Kaczor felt the world fall out from under her, the relief of knowing her wife was alive took all the fight out of her, as she listened to Malik the crying started. She didn't know why she was crying, well, she did, she knew it was a mixture of relief and grief, of feeling an outsider in her own home, an unneeded accessory to Ella's life, but she'd examine those feelings later, alone, so she finally took Annie from Malik, Yes, darling, Mapa needs a kiss, Kazcor was a mess, but Ella lived. She could take a few private moments, here with Annie, could put herself back together, because her wife lived, and Malik was right.

She was going to have to be Ella's support for the next little bit. Just like Ella had been for her, when she had to put herself together after prison. And as she sat there on the ground, hugging Annie to her, she sighed heavily, Okay my darling, we've got to be brave and strong for mommy, but we can do that, can't we? She heard the door click behind her, and knew Malik had slipped inside, the sting of being an outsider once again raising up in her mind before she squashed it down completely -- later, much later, she would be able to examine that.

Now was about Ella.

@Malachai Valentius
@Novella Tilani


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RE: Told Myself I Wouldn't Go There - by Kaczor Tilani - 10-27-2024, 05:55 PM