The grasp of the Queen's hand on his shoulder caused Julian to internally want to move out within the shift. But he stood there to not cause alarm. His father would do this to him when he was getting lectured, or if he wanted Julian to notice something important. A choice? Did he have a choice? If he said no to the heir, it would be passed down to his sister but what would that be due to his family's name? How much shame would that bring? Even if he didn't want to be heir, this was the life he had to do. Regardless of the choice. A feint reassuring smile formed on his face. [color=#c10300]"And choices has consequences, my Queen. Whether I make a choice, there is always a reaction to that choice." [/color]
His family meant the world to him. He would never want to tarnish the name but he also didn't want to do the same thing his father did. If he was going to take the head of the family, he was going to do it in his own way. Carve his own destiny and path. But part of him felt like he was never good enough. The sudden stir of emotions swirled within him. With his mother's death, he never truly believed that his father blamed his kids for the death. He was a good father but at the same time, he was never there. The weight of having to grow up as a Talon put a heavy weight on him. Luckily he was never alone. He had his twin sister and his brother. But even his own darkest thoughts, he never shared with anyone.
[color=#c10300]"Family must stay together...."[/color] The facade of his smile broke slightly. The pain of his emotions gushed out for all but a second. There was so much pressure for him to not fail. Feeling his emotions crack, the smile and confidence reestablished like a wall of force around him. "We do anything for our family...." Julian had a sense that the Queen would understand these words. She would do anything for Alonso and Fran. Julian would do anything for his sister and brother. Even his father if it came down to it. If he had to kill, he would kill. Cover up, done. It wasn't a matter of morals for him. It was a matter of protecting his family.
His family meant the world to him. He would never want to tarnish the name but he also didn't want to do the same thing his father did. If he was going to take the head of the family, he was going to do it in his own way. Carve his own destiny and path. But part of him felt like he was never good enough. The sudden stir of emotions swirled within him. With his mother's death, he never truly believed that his father blamed his kids for the death. He was a good father but at the same time, he was never there. The weight of having to grow up as a Talon put a heavy weight on him. Luckily he was never alone. He had his twin sister and his brother. But even his own darkest thoughts, he never shared with anyone.
[color=#c10300]"Family must stay together...."[/color] The facade of his smile broke slightly. The pain of his emotions gushed out for all but a second. There was so much pressure for him to not fail. Feeling his emotions crack, the smile and confidence reestablished like a wall of force around him. "We do anything for our family...." Julian had a sense that the Queen would understand these words. She would do anything for Alonso and Fran. Julian would do anything for his sister and brother. Even his father if it came down to it. If he had to kill, he would kill. Cover up, done. It wasn't a matter of morals for him. It was a matter of protecting his family.
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