Nathaniel still felt the sting of anger when he heard in the Free Marches that thanks to their father his family had lost everything. It wasn't fair, it wasn't right. He'd been in the Free Marches, why was he being punished for something he didn't do. All he'd wanted to do was take back some heirlooms that were rightfully his family's, but that excuse hadn't gone over well when he'd been caught by the Grey Wardens. He still wasn't used to being one of them, but his choices had been limited and alive was better then dead, even if as a Grey Warden he was essentially a dead man walking.
He hadn't always gotten along with his family, but aside from the outrage that his family was paying the price for his dad's sins, he also felt an outrage towards what his father had done, what Loghain had done. It felt like too insane to be his life, it had to be someone else's, not his. He had been mostly avoiding his family and friends since returning to Ferelden and becoming a Grey Warden.
He couldn't help but wonder what would have happened if he'd been home, he certainly wouldn't have gone along with the insane plan, but what would that have meant. He wasn't home though, and now he had to look people in the eye that blamed him as much as they blamed his father. He was considering transferring to the Free March Grey Wardens, but for now he stayed to help rebuild Amaranthine, it was the least he could do. He could decide later if he could bear sticking around Ferelden or not.
When he got word that Elanna Cousland was there to see him, his shoulders slumped. One of the last people in the world he wanted to see right now. How the fuck was he supposed to see her, his father had taken so much from her. For fuck's sake he'd even had Fergus's wife and child murdered. He hadn't always gotten along with his father, but the fact his father was willing to stoop that low absolutely sickened Nathaniel. He made his way to the room where Elanna was waiting. He entered he wasn't sure what to say, was she going to blame him like so many others did, accuse him of being in Ferelden helping his father, there were so many rumour sfloating around, most didn't know the actual truth. He sighed.
He hadn't always gotten along with his family, but aside from the outrage that his family was paying the price for his dad's sins, he also felt an outrage towards what his father had done, what Loghain had done. It felt like too insane to be his life, it had to be someone else's, not his. He had been mostly avoiding his family and friends since returning to Ferelden and becoming a Grey Warden.
He couldn't help but wonder what would have happened if he'd been home, he certainly wouldn't have gone along with the insane plan, but what would that have meant. He wasn't home though, and now he had to look people in the eye that blamed him as much as they blamed his father. He was considering transferring to the Free March Grey Wardens, but for now he stayed to help rebuild Amaranthine, it was the least he could do. He could decide later if he could bear sticking around Ferelden or not.
When he got word that Elanna Cousland was there to see him, his shoulders slumped. One of the last people in the world he wanted to see right now. How the fuck was he supposed to see her, his father had taken so much from her. For fuck's sake he'd even had Fergus's wife and child murdered. He hadn't always gotten along with his father, but the fact his father was willing to stoop that low absolutely sickened Nathaniel. He made his way to the room where Elanna was waiting. He entered he wasn't sure what to say, was she going to blame him like so many others did, accuse him of being in Ferelden helping his father, there were so many rumour sfloating around, most didn't know the actual truth. He sighed.
Elanna.....
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