[Completed] Dear Diary

I'm pretty sure mother hates me, or at least strongly dislikes me. I don't know what I did, or maybe it's not what I did but what I didn't do. I can't seem to do anything but get on her bad side. It's not like I'm doing it on purpose, mostly. Sometimes the rage demon in me makes me feel out of control, like I get really upset and I just see red. Mom was trying to teach me illusion magic the other day and I wasn't able to make two copies of myself, to which she got pissed off, to which I got pissed off. Then she tried to teach me something using blood magic and the sight of blood made me fucking feint. So embarrassing.

I wonder if she was ever like this with Kieran when he was younger, he has a much better relationship with mother than I do. All of it makes me miss dad even more. There was so much confusion when I woke up from the magical coma, getting the news that dad had died while I'd been in the coma devastated me. It's not fair.