"[color=#ff4136]Not here, like your home, Rene, here as in ... the city. I don't like talking to a lot of new people.[/color]" Not since, well not since Luce had been taken hostage. During her time alone in the city, without a manor to serve, and without anything to really occupy her mind, she had been lost. She had found work, tutoring of course, but after everything had been taken back, and settled-ish, she had locked herself inside her study at the manor, and rarely if ever left any more. Everything had happened when she had gone to the market with another servant to pick up the manor's groceries for the week.
Leaving the house was a risk, and one that she couldn't take too often now. And as much as any of them would tell her it was silly to think something as random as everything having had happened while she was away from the house, didn't make it any less true in her mind. She had, for all intents, and purposes, been one of the only staff to survive, and had lost Luce and the others in the process. Even now, she had nightmares of how she might have been able to do something had she been there. No doubt she would have been as dead as the rest of the staff, but... her mind said that it was her fault that she had left that day. Survivor's guilt, someone had told her one time.
"[color=#ff4136]And on that we agree, in the pursuit of knowledge, we mustn't say no, but why.[/color]" It had been something one of the Biology professors had said a lot of, on the few talks she had been able to sit outside the door for. Never inside the room -- she wasn't supposed to have been there, but outside the door was just as easy to learn from as inside the room. "[color=#ff4136]You and Lucien and the lecture halls..[/color]", she rolled her eyes. These men in her life were all set in the departments. "[color=#ff4136]Collaboration outside of the immediate opens new worlds and opportunities for all, which is why I came to you first. You'll help me with this, yes? If I lay the ground work, you'll do the maths for me, and then... maybe hire another healer to put me back together in case I blow myself up in my study, yes?[/color]" She grinned, some, pulling her bare feet up under herself in the chair now.
Leaving the house was a risk, and one that she couldn't take too often now. And as much as any of them would tell her it was silly to think something as random as everything having had happened while she was away from the house, didn't make it any less true in her mind. She had, for all intents, and purposes, been one of the only staff to survive, and had lost Luce and the others in the process. Even now, she had nightmares of how she might have been able to do something had she been there. No doubt she would have been as dead as the rest of the staff, but... her mind said that it was her fault that she had left that day. Survivor's guilt, someone had told her one time.
"[color=#ff4136]And on that we agree, in the pursuit of knowledge, we mustn't say no, but why.[/color]" It had been something one of the Biology professors had said a lot of, on the few talks she had been able to sit outside the door for. Never inside the room -- she wasn't supposed to have been there, but outside the door was just as easy to learn from as inside the room. "[color=#ff4136]You and Lucien and the lecture halls..[/color]", she rolled her eyes. These men in her life were all set in the departments. "[color=#ff4136]Collaboration outside of the immediate opens new worlds and opportunities for all, which is why I came to you first. You'll help me with this, yes? If I lay the ground work, you'll do the maths for me, and then... maybe hire another healer to put me back together in case I blow myself up in my study, yes?[/color]" She grinned, some, pulling her bare feet up under herself in the chair now.
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