'Because I never wanted a family'. Well that stung. But it also tracked with what he'd come to know of Nairn. And maybe Megara didn't live with the Coterie, but she was still around! Sometimes she had to go away, but she didn't stay away forever. And this felt like Haulean was being sent away-away. For good. It hurt.
Nairn declared again that he was to go to Arlathan, and it felt like a knife in the boy's heart. But as Haulean took a breath to protest, his chin was suddenly held fast, almost painfully. The words spoken were somewhat startling, but not so much as the gesture itself. The younger male's big blue eyes were wide as saucers, and still filled with tears. It was hard. On one hand, Nairn was generously setting him free -of BOTH debts- but... it also felt like he was bring thrown away.
The sudden decision to go through the letters could have been seen as a little peace offering. And Haulean did want to look at them. But he had a point to make first. "I don't care about the debts, I want to stay with you!" he exclaimed, determined to get through Nairn's stupid stubbornness. "You're my family! You're all I have! You and Meg! You liked having me around before! but now because you know who I am, you want to throw me away like yesterday's rubbish? You might as well just p-put me out of my misery, r-right here!"
Deft hands, however shaky, made quick work of producing the dagger he knew Nairn kept on his person, and Haulean held the point to the hollow of his own throat. Teary eyes did not flinch from his father's, though he was trembling. "I w-won't stop you. If you r-really don't w-want me. It'd be less p-painful like this, than... th-than being th-thrown away."
Nairn declared again that he was to go to Arlathan, and it felt like a knife in the boy's heart. But as Haulean took a breath to protest, his chin was suddenly held fast, almost painfully. The words spoken were somewhat startling, but not so much as the gesture itself. The younger male's big blue eyes were wide as saucers, and still filled with tears. It was hard. On one hand, Nairn was generously setting him free -of BOTH debts- but... it also felt like he was bring thrown away.
The sudden decision to go through the letters could have been seen as a little peace offering. And Haulean did want to look at them. But he had a point to make first. "I don't care about the debts, I want to stay with you!" he exclaimed, determined to get through Nairn's stupid stubbornness. "You're my family! You're all I have! You and Meg! You liked having me around before! but now because you know who I am, you want to throw me away like yesterday's rubbish? You might as well just p-put me out of my misery, r-right here!"
Deft hands, however shaky, made quick work of producing the dagger he knew Nairn kept on his person, and Haulean held the point to the hollow of his own throat. Teary eyes did not flinch from his father's, though he was trembling. "I w-won't stop you. If you r-really don't w-want me. It'd be less p-painful like this, than... th-than being th-thrown away."
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